Me and my kids, 1 year old and almost 4 year old.

I love you, Dad.

Today, is a 14 years anniversary of my father's death. I still remember every single second of that the time God took his life away. The only one who was not there was my older sister who was in the States at that time. She came home right after and missed the funeral by one day.

God, life is so fragile, human being is so fragile. After all the bad things happened on Sunday, we should thank God more for every single thing we have, children, job, life, friends, house, air we breath every day, food, and pray more than usual.

Tomorrow Aidan will be 1 year old and a special birthday wish for my sister, Ezzy, who just had a birthday on the 18th, a day before my father's death. It is always hard for her during her birthday, she is a blessed woman, she finished her ENT specialist not long ago, has 3 beautiful kids, great parents in law, life to the fullest, but I don't know that God planned to have her birthday surrounded by the death of her loved ones. Ardi, her husband passed away 3 days before her birthday, it has been 5 years now, and our father passed away a day after her birthday, and our grandma passed away a year ago on the 23rd.

One thing I know for sure, that she is so blessed in her life, every one loves and cares about her, and she counts her blessings every day.

Dear all our wonderful friends,

Me and my family would like to thank all of you for making Aidan's first birthday party a superb and enjoyable party. It was really nice to see all of you coming and give blessing for our little boy.

We also had quite a day today, just the day after the party. Ammar went to work at 9 am and I went to the basement to check on birthday stuff down, I found a huge leak on one of the corner of the basement (it was raining outside and the snow were melting), I found out it was a leak from the roof, then I went upstairs to get Aidan and beep Ammar to tell about what happened, at the same time Aidan was vomiting, God knows what he found on the floor and ate, then choked.
Ammar called right away with a bad news : "He flipped the car on the road, only 5 miles away from our house on North Territorial Road", I ended up calling our neighbor to keep an eye on the kids, while I was chasing him to where the accident happened. I saw the car, on the side of the road (ditch), facing me... the car was totally damaged on the driver side, the back window shattered, the front bumper was damaged, and both doors where heavily damaged as the car turned 1.5  times, dragged the car sideways and hit 2 mailboxes until finally stopped facing backward.
Thank you God, Ammar is okay, his glasses fell off, and his back was hurt, but he is okay.

After got towed and waiting for the police to come, he managed to drive back home (forget about going to work then), and we dealt with the leak in the basement, the builder came to see what happened, and he promised to fix it.

Thank you God for everything, and everyone is safe despite of the whole ordeal today, we cancelled all our plans today and just rest at home. 

We are asking your blessings again, and thank you all to be our best friends/families.

PS: For lisa, I can't thank you enough for all your help, without your help, the party will not be ready on time. Sue, thank you so much for taking the pictures at the party.

Love,
sari

It was Sunday morning, the temperature went up a bit and we had slightly rain, the snow turned into ice, the terrible winter road condition in Michigan, made Ammar had accident on the way to work. He spins 1.5 times and stopped on the side of the road almost turn backwards completely. He is okay, and God Bless all of us, life is so fragile and you should really appreciate life to the fullest. He canceled work and went home with me. The kids were watched by our beloved Neighbor, Andrea. Thanks Andrea.
This is a reminder of how lucky we are and we are still protected.

Quote from Nadia : "Daddy has accident on the road and NOW, he has silver car!!!!"

Nothing like seeing my children in the car, buckled up, in my husband's car, driving to go to school, HAPPILY! Aidan used to say bye bye whenever Nadia and Daddy went in the morning, now, he is inside, ready to go... he got so excited, smiling, gleefully waving bye bye, Nadia said bye bye so excitedly and of course, the big guy, too.

I am so blessed to find this wonderful Montessori Program. The kids LOVE it! I usually don't trust anyone, even until now, to give up my kids under someone's care, but I trusted and I feel good and secure to have my kids playing and educated there at this school.

Aidan goes part time, and Nadia goes almost full time. I have special days for Nadia and Aidan to stay at home and have fun with me.

I have been feeling blue lately. Aidan's turning one on the 20th, and every time I think about it, I recollect the time when Nadia's turning one. We celebrated her birthday one month earlier because we were moving to Michigan, it was one great party. I decorated the house with balloons and we had the house full of people, because it was also a farewell party for all our friends.

Now, he is going to be one, and I so sudden miss my mother so much. She was here on Aidan's birth and I can't believe it has been one year since my mother came to visit.

We supposed to come to Jakarta this year, but I don't think we could do it, we might move again, and we might not. 

I spent some afternoon decorating the house. Of course, once Aidan woke up from nap, I couldn't do anything. I managed to clean the kitchen when the sitter came for 2 hours.

I tried to make the party as good as when Nadia turned one. It is hard because again, I have to do everything all by myself. Amora, as usual is busy, he will start his service again this Saturday, the time that we are going to have party.

I talked to my mother and sister today, and it doesn't make it better. I miss them dearly, or is it just winter blues ?

The studying doesn't make any progress lately, as I have been very distracted. 

Amora gave me a special gift on the Valentine's day didn't really make me so joyful. I love the present, he is such a wonderful dad and husband, the present is so thoughtful, that's just what I needed, and I think it is so romantic knowing him giving me something which I needed.

Happy Valentine's Day.

If someone asked me : "Do you want to move out of this state ?" I will answer : "I have no saying." The reasons are :

1. The house: I love our house, it's pretty big, huge yard for the kids to play, as big as a soccer field, so Aidan and Nadia can run around, or even drive the car in the back yard, and front yard.

It is big, huge, and sometimes it is a pain to keep it tidy and clean, you can imagine, just putting toys around back to their places, it took me more than an hour.

2. I love the kitchen. I love to cook, and I love huge kitchen.

3. Friends and neighbors. They are just like families to me. It will be so heartbroken (for me and Nadia) if we are leaving.

4. I like Ann Arbor, the heaven for kids, so much to offer for the little ones.

5. Nadia loves the school she is attending, and Aidan is starting to like it, too. I love the school because the kids love it!

6. Ammar loves where he works, he learned so much there at U of Michigan. Go Blue!

The downside :

1. Cold! Cold! Cold! It is too cold here, as much as Nadia loves snow to make snowman, and how beautiful the snow is.. Almost every winter, I am in the bad mood!! At night now, the temperature goes down to 1 degree Fahrenheit (not Celcius!!!!), and during the day, it is around 14-15. I used to like winter and snow when I just started living here in the States because I come from Tropical Country, but after living here for 10 years, I have enough cold!

Now, everytime Fall comes, I started to get depressed! I know the cold will come soon.

Even Ammar who loves his toy (tractor with the snow pusher) started to get annoyed to do the snow plowing every time.

Dilemma!

I wonder, and I believe, that we have to be careful with all our sayings and our acts in our life. I am a believer that we should put ourselves in others' shoes in any act or quotes. 

I also a believer that if you are not sure of saying anything, it's better to keep silence. Silence is Gold.

People might have other plans, we can't just crossed over and jump into a conclusion before you asked permission or just plain ask before we have to say anything.

This is just a quote of the day. I have been a believer of this quote, but I have seen the surroundings are still doing it... 

Anyway.... I have a great day today. I spent all day with my little girl, cuddling, drawing, study while she is playing, went to lunch, watched her skating lessons, went shopping, and picked up Aidan ... came back home... played with 2 kids, put Aidan to bed, played with Nadia again, and finally I have my own time to just venting about that thing above. Ammar is playing tennis so he will be home late, but since he left from Hollywood, I didn't realize how much I need him and how much I miss him, and I have to admit... I can't live without him.

Flu Shot.

All of us got flu shots, except Amora. He works at the hospital and he should have had flu shot but he refused. I am not a fan of flu shot. I am just not a believer of flu shot, once I got flu shot, I got sick right away, that was when I was living in Manhattan, NYC, I was sick like a puppy for the whole week, body ache, runny nose, coughing, headache, muscle ache, the whole nine yard, which are signs of flu.

Because I have asthma, so I had to have flu shot, so I did.

Aidan got bad cold and cough right after his flu shot when we had vacation in Arizona, Nadia was fine. I was fine.

Last night, I got chills, my husband had to hug me in bed until my chills were gone. I got terrible cough. Everyone, except my husband got sick. Aidan got it so bad that he had his 2nd ear infection.

I got chills again today, I cranked up the heating until 80 Fahrenheit and I still shivered. I put on hot water in the tub, and still shivered. Finally I called my doctor.

He called me back personally and asked me to come at anytime. He knows my husband and he contacts him sometimes for referrals. 

It was snow storm, the road was terrible, we all drove 30-35 MPH in the highway! So many accidents.. so slippery. It took me 50 minutes to get to my doctor.

He told me, I didn't need antibiotic, because I GOT FLU!!!!!!

Now tell me... why I got flu shot in the first place if I ended up getting flu ?

I still have my body ache, my muscles are hurting, my tummy hurts, nasty cough... ugh!!!

Aidan is over his sickness, Nadia is still having stomach ache and cough, but she doesn't have fever, I have to admit that Nadia is very strong. She still never got any antibiotic until now, and she is almost 4.

My cousin in UK posted the youtube video about obama, YES, WE CAN. It was pretty good. I have been leaning towards voting for him for the change in American point of view. He is young, and he is down to earth, and I like his policy.