Asthma under control.

Went to my pulmonologist for a check up today. It's been a year that I didn't have a single flare up from my asthma, thanks to the comprehensive health services I got from U of M, and I am on the lowest dose of Advair.

My doctor said : "Your lung is clear like a bell". That makes me happy.
Another thing, with my height of 5'7", and weigh 121 lbs, the nurse got so jealous at me.. she told me how lucky I was, although I just gave birth to a baby 5 weeks ago. I got the ideal weight rightaway, fit my old pants again.

Ammar decided not to go tennis today, thanks Amora. We ended up having barbeque, marvelous potato, and some salad. It was a yummy dinner. The weather was awesome, we sat down in the sun room, listening to the insects making noises in the backyard. Nice night.

Last night, we ended up having Aidan co-slept with us. He was so gassy and colicky, he woke up literally every hour. On the top of it, Ammar got a beep, he made some phone calls to the hospital regarding one patient who was really sick at 3 am, lasted for half an hour. He went back to check on me who was like a life Frankenstein.. half asleep. He hugged me while I was nursing, and he told me : "I am sorry, baby. It is so hard to be a mother. Breastfeeding is harder than the formula feed just because they get hungry more often. But it will paid back. Hang in there, baby. I love you so much."

Just hearing him saying that to me, it feels I was not tired anymore. He is so supportive, much more than I ever noticed before when we just had Nadia.

We both were so drowsy when we woke up this morning. He made me a cup of coffee to wake me up. Thanks, baby.

I love you so much, Amora.

What a wonderful husband.

Ammar came home late, he has 2 weeks full for the rotation with residents and fellows at the VA and U of M hospital to cover the consults for those 2 hospitals. On the top of this double busy schedule, he played tennis after work and came home at 10 pm, found me breaking off because it was just too busy taking care of 2 kids and my mother who just suddenly got sick after 6 pm.

He put the kids to bed and got me a glass of milk in the bed and a banana (because I haven't eaten dinner yet and didn't feel like eating, too tired), and once I knew and alert again, it was 6 am, and I found my husband in Aidan's room, lying down with him on his bare chest, sleeping. That's the cutest and sweetest thing I have ever seen to see father and son sleeping together.

I got my first 7 hours sleeping through the night since Aidan's born, thank you my darling husband!!!

 

This is the view of Ammar carrying both kids up to their bedrooms almost every night. He enjoys being a father of 2 and he doesn't mind carrying both of the kids upstairs. How about me.. can you carry me, too ?

It's been an exhausting 2 weeks after Aidan was born. My mother is not a great help for sure, so I am sooo lack of sleep that makes me having a stubborn headache for the last 4 days. Ammar has been so a great help during this time, he usually pick Aidan up from his bedroom at around 11 pm-12 am... then I ended up sleeping in Aidan's room through morning. He still wakes up 1-2 times, but it just a big adjustments again to keep waking up every 2-3 hours.
Ammar made me promise to sleep at least 4 hours straight, but I can't keep my promise, there are so many things I needed to do around the house, can't see the dirty house eventhough the maid will come on Monday to clean up, I ended up vacuuming (very very slowly due to the pain still on my stitches) the whole first floor of our house.. now, I can relax my eyes from all the crumbs in the kitchen!!!

It's Friday night, while Ammar spent time with little Nadia, bathing her, getting her ready for bed, I was nursing Aidan, and I could not open my eyes, I ended up sleeping with him in my bed... Ammar got Aidan, put him to his bed, and so sudden I felt like ... wow.... what happened ? My breast felt so full, and I wonder if Aidan had been awake... Ammar came to the bedroom after 5 minutes, it was 1 am, he just finished up his lecture for the 14th... and he told me, Aidan woke up 2 hours after he slept with me, he gave him the milk I expressed, and he finished it all, and I slept for a straight 5 hours!

Since Aidan was born, we really feel that we are the luckiest family... I was a bit worry about our relationship because Ammar's friend who just got a baby boy (second one), got divorced right after the baby boy arrived... and I always wonder what will happened after Aidan is born.... fortunately, since he was born, we bonded more and more and realize how lucky we are to have 2 healthy and beautiful children. Even Nadia got the sense of what a family is all about.

Ammar, if you read this... I love you so much, my darling. Thank you for everything.