It's raining all day long and it's cold. This weather makes me feeling blue. I am not supposed to feel that blue, it happens anyway.
Although today I picked up Indonesian dishes, my favorite, the only one I can't make it my own, satay padang, at my bestfriend's house who just launched he catering business, Lemongrazz, came home, send Aidan for nap, and slowly eating my lunch, enjoying every bite of the delicious meal, I feel so blessed. Even though we don't have Indonesian restaurant around, now I can eat my favorite food of all. Thank you, ibu ibu Lemongrazz!
Your catering business made my homesick gone away, I used to miss living back in New York City, going to the asian friendly grocery, finding lots of Indonesian spices, blue band (my favorite), kaffir lime leaves, etc, and going to the Padang Restaurant, just a subway away. It was heaven!

Now that I have kids, I don't miss living in Manhattan, I love living in a quieter place, little town which still have the high family value, wonderful school, and low crime rate.

Life is busy, reading all my friend fb who has nannies, and during Eid Mubarak they have to live without nanny for 2 weeks, makes me think, yes, I am so busy, but boy, I am so proud to be a mommy who really takes care of my children in every count, cook, clean, out for fun with them, preparing their lunches, and you go to bed exhausted, but it makes me feel that life is so short, it is a bless that you can spend the most of your time, loving them, and all you got back is more loves from them to their own mommy, not their nannies.

The kids are getting big, and I am blessed that I am invited to 2 postgraduate school interviews, hopefully I get accepted and could give more to my family and my kids. Leaving tomorrow night for wednesday all day interview. Wish me best of luck.

It feels like he has never gone.
It feels like he is still alive
It feels like he is around
It feels like he is still in facebook

I left a wall post for him today, and it brought so much tears, realizing he is no longer alive.

Farewell my love, farewell my greatest big brother...

I love you so much, just in case I have never told you how I feel about you.

(picture of my brother and my grandpa)

Summer is almost over, the kids are crazy about water.
I confirmed with Ammar that I would go ahead, joining the club in town, today.
We went and the kids had the fun time in their life, going swimming indoor.
Nadia tried her brand new snorkel sets, and Aidan loved his new goggles and dipped his head in the water all the time and hold his breath.

They ate all the lunch I packed for them, and come home happily.

One great decision I made for our family, on our anniversary day.

Happy anniversary, hope by joining this club, we all are going to exercise, and live healthy dan happily.

My 7th happy Wedding Anniversary, 9/1/02 - 9/1/09

We had gone through the best part of the life, and also the disappointments in life, we went through it together, as a husband and wife, in good, and bad times, in healthy and sickness time.
All those 7 years we hold hands, side by side, supporting each other, reminding each other, and loving each other, sharing our home, sharing our 2 beautiful kids.

I always say that he was the answer of my prayers. Knowing him for the last 9.5 years, I have known every details, I know when something is bothering him, I know what makes him happy, and I know all about his dreams, what will light up his eyes, and what will not.

He is a great daddy, when he works a lot, he tried to make it up at night, he always put the kids to bed every single night, cuddle with them every time he has time. The kids are so fond of him, they run and chase him from the garage door every day he comes back from work... I do that, too.. chasing him with the kids and give him a big warm hug.

Our marriage is not perfect, but we could make certain others jealous just to look at how happy and well balanced our family is. Although we know about it, we are hoping that we are blessed with everything God will give our family, also others.

Our family has grown to be bigger, closer, loving and full of laughter and hugs. If you spend the time with our family, you will see how much we love each other.

This anniversary is something that we cherish, especially at the holy month of fasting, we are going to celebrate it.. celebrate the happiest 7 years in our life.

Thank you God Almighty for your blessings and your gifts to me, especially, thank you for giving me the chance to be part of Ammar's family and his children.

Thank you for your blessings.

Random pictures on our last vacation in Indonesia.
Happy Anniversary, my love. You are the greatest Dad and husband.