Thursday, July 17, 2008

I have trouble studying. Either I can't concentrate, or the lines I read just passed by in and out my brain without any trace.
I remember I used to just talked out loud then memorized the subjects almost instantly when I was still in school. Usually before the exam time, almost every single classmate, talking out loud, memorizing things for the exam which was coming in minutes. I usually stressed out because I just didn't study enough before the exams, luckily, during my time in grade schools until dental school, just because I really listen and write during the lecture, maybe it got absorbed right away in my brain, so I always in the top 5-10% in my class.

Now, after a long time without reading or studying, having a mother's brain... I really am struggling to study for my board exam. 

After a long discussion with my best friend, Lisa... she suggested to have my voice recorded and listen to it again and again. Instantly, I went to get the recorder, a very cute one.. and started working on it when the kids are asleep. 

The result is promising... the only thing that I won't be able to study at the library anymore, when I recording my voice, I should just stay at home, shutting down all the phones and internet.... and just focusing with my dictation, when I need to listen again, I can go to library which has so much less distractions than studying at home.

I found out on the internet, an article about memorizing the lines, lyrics of songs, and exam, by listening to your own voice. ... hah! I even get to excited now.....

Allah, please make this method the best for me and I will pass my exam easily, not only passing because I am aiming for score 90.. instead of the passing mark of 75.

Here is the article :

        • How to memorize for exams and tests

        There are many memories: visual, aural, tactile, emotional, smell, taste. If you are blessed with a photographic memory, then you have the ease of literally “reading” your lines out of your brain. This is because you are able to “see” the words on the page from within your own mind.

        But the average person cannot do this. So the memory that will become the most functional is the “tactile” or “muscular” memory. The following information will be geared towards harnessing the hidden power of your muscular memory towards your goal of memorizing lines. As a piano teacher for more than 32 years, I’ve witnessed the miracle of the muscular memory at the piano with myself and with thousands of pianists. The truths that I’ve observed at the piano are immediately applicable to the goal of memorizing speeches, memorizing lines, memorizing plays. This also will work for memorizing formulas and various expressions while studying for a test in school.

        Once you “know” the perfunctory technique of saying your lines, you can then easily add expression. The problem that most people have is that they are focusing so much on the blocking, stage direction, vocal inflections and expression that the lines themselves disappear from their mind and they become very embarrassed. This does not mean that you are not smart or that you are losing your mind. This just means that you are normal! Your brain can only do one thing at a time. If you are focused on one thing, then the other thing is compromised. Yet, if the words can be delegated to the autonomic nervous system, to the point where you don’t have to think about it, then you can focus on other things like feeling and expression and the words will no longer disappear. This is because the conscious mind can only think of one thing at a time. If you want to do two things at a time, then at least one of those two things must be automated. This information will help you so that the lines that you need to memorize will become automated.

Create Logical Divisions of Text.

        Sometimes, the way the words lay out on the page are based on their poetic presentation rather than their spoken logic. Mark the page or literally re-type so that you can see things in a logical way:

        We will use an example excerpted from Shakespeare’s Hamlet.

        Original Excerpt:

          To be, or not to be--that is the question: 
          Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer 
          The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune 
          Or to take arms against a sea of troubles 
          And by opposing end them. To die, to sleep-- 
          No more--and by a sleep to say we end 
          The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks 
          That flesh is heir to. 'Tis a consummation 
          Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep-- 
          To sleep--perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub, 
          For in that sleep of death what dreams may come 
          When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, 
          Must give us pause. There's the respect 
          That makes calamity of so long life.

        Reorganized text:

          To be, or not to be--that is the question:

          Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles And by opposing end them.

          To die, to sleep-- No more--and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to.

          'Tis a consummation Devoutly to be wished.

          To die, to sleep-- To sleep--perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub, For in that sleep of death what dreams may come When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, ust give us pause.

          There's the respect That makes calamity of so long life.

Repeat Small Sections Without Feeling, With Overlaps to Next Section.

        The reason for this is to develop the muscular memory, separate from the emotional memory. You may have to repeat the same line between 20-200 times before it feels automatic. Do it without expression. Make sure you overlap what you say with the next word or two of the next line. This way, you are automating your preparedness, so it will happen instinctively, without effort.

          To be, or not to be--that is the question:

          Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles And by opposing end them.

        The lines to repeat are indicated in bold text. The last few words you say in one repetition cycle become the first few words of the next repetition cycle. This means that there is a very literal overlap of words, to create the flow.

        If you are doing a speech or a monologue, the process is very clear cut. If you are doing a play, where other people’s lines are interspersed with yours, then you have a choice to practice the overlap from or to their lines, or to strictly do it with your lines only. There is no exact rule about this and you have to experiment to see what works for you. If you are waiting for someone’s cue and you haven’t memorized what that is, then you will have problems, so it may be worthwhile to grab the tail end of their lines and PRECEDE your repetitions of your lines by including their lines with your lines. Say their lines very soft, so there is a dynamic difference. This way, you will muscularly memorize your lines, but be aware of their lines and how they set your lines up.

Create a Mental Index.

        When you think of just the first word or two of each of your line, this is your index. If you practice saying just these index words (in addition to running the full lines) then you will be cementing in an overview of WHAT LINE COMES NEXT!

          To be, or not to be--that is the question:

          Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles And by opposing end them.

          To die, to sleep-- No more--and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to.

          'Tis a consummation Devoutly to be wished.

          To die, to sleep-- To sleep--perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub, For in that sleep of death what dreams may come When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, ust give us pause.

          There's the respect That makes calamity of so long life.

        Literally say the first few words of each line, in sequence, as if it was its own line! It would sound like this:

          To be, or not to be… Whether 'tis nobler… To die, to sleep…'Tis a consummation… There's the respect…

        Sometimes, you remember the lines fine, but you just forget which one comes next. The mental indexing will help you see the context and feel secure.

Record Yourself and Play Back.

        Use a cassette recorder or a micro cassette recorder or a digital dictation device to record yourself saying the thing you want to memorize. Then play this back to yourself over and over in the background, while you are doing other things. This will create a complement to the other techniques listed above and will help add a subliminal or intuitive awareness.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Ammar is on vacation. Originally we were supposed to go to Indonesia, but we ended up having a quiet vacation at home, so when the kids are in school, we did some stuff together, enjoyed life, and just hang out.
There are so many things  happened for the last 2 weeks... and my relationship with my husband got better and better.
I had one fine day today, spending the whole day today picking up pairs of glasses, went to see my shrink (yes, I am still suffering from post partum depression) with Ammar for the session, then just walked in downtown, and ate at one of our favorite Italian Rest, Gratzi. Yum.
We went home happily, and spend more quality time together before we picked the kids up from school.
There are so many lessons that built our relationship stronger and stronger since Ammar took vacation 4 days ago... and having internet connection back after the last 4 days, made us spend more time together.
I still have another week with my husband, just me and him, something we rarely have since the born of our kids, and I am so happy.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008


It's officially 1 year ago when my mother left my home and back to Indonesia. My mom left a sewing machine which I bought for her projects, making all kind of stuff for Nadia and Aidan. I actually don't know how to sew, but today, I ended up taking the sewing machine out, went to used to be my mom's room (guest room) and making a project. My first sewing project. Thanks to Nadia. Nadia's school asked me to buy an apron for father's day project. I was too lazy to drive to the store today, and I decided just to make one for her, the result of my love for my daughter and her daddy. Happy father's day, My Sayang.
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Sunday, June 01, 2008

My birthday cake. This supposedly to be made on my birthday party. This is my first time making a fondant cake, I ended up making it the day after the party, and give it to Nadia's school teacher, whose birthday is today, June 1. On my party, I was just couldn't have enough time to do it, I ended up asking Lisa to buy a cake for me... Easy huh ? Well, here is my home made fondant cake, pretty flower, and Nadia loves it a lot she wanted one for her birthday.



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Saturday, May 31, 2008

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We celebrated my birthday a week after, because my birthday was on Saturday, the memorial day weekend. We had a trip to Upper Michigan and had my own 12 am birthday celebration on my real birthday... then we celebrated it again, the week after at home with all my beloved friends and their families.

I just realized, when I blew the candle, I didn't make a wish at all, I guess I have it all and I couldn't think of anything this year. Pretty blessed with my life right now. Thank you, God.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Blissful food.... That's all I can say for our weekend experience. The kids and us ate so much that we could not imagine, even Aidan ate the whole food.

On Saturday I cooked, brunch and dinner. On Sunday, Ammar cooked. Oh my! The food we had for the last 2 days were beyond expectation.

Most importantly, we really enjoyed our time together as a family, away from Ammar's workload. Bliss.

Thursday, May 15, 2008


I have been longing to have a maroon colored formal dining room, and finally since we know we are not moving for a while from this house, I decided to do my project to celebrate my birthday on the 24th.
I got to tell you, how hard it is to paint a really dark color, especially when the finish is satin. I lost hope, but when it got dried, it looks so much better. Phew!
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

This is the project since a year ago when my mother was still here. The upholstry of these breakfast table chairs were so due to be changed. My mother was planning to make the cover for this chair and it was never done, since the birth of Aidan took lots of my mom's time during her visit.
Here I went, trying something I have never done in my life, self taught, and I finally figured out how to do it, and it came out good. Ammar likes it. Yay, no more dirty chair.
PS: Mom, look, I finally did it!
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Sunday, May 11, 2008



Nadia and I decided to draw something for mother's day and we both colored it. Nadia colored the flowers, and I drew the outline and the letters. Happy mothers' Day, everyone. Hope you all had a wonderful one.
PS: Mom, especially for you... I love you so much, I miss you and happy mother's day
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Friday, May 09, 2008

We decided that starting this year, the house and the yard don't own us... We owned them and we are going to spend our spare time (which is minimal) to hang out with kids and have a more quality time together as a family. 
I hired a landscape company to take care of our huge lawn and the flower beds, and I am quite surprise how good job they did so far and I am pleased.
There are total of 4 workers coming to our house every time, one is trimming the edges of the flower beds, one pulling out the weeds on the flower beds, 2 people with 2 zero rotation lawn mower mowed our lawn in less than 15 minutes (I usually do it in an hour or more). 
Today, I saw the boss came to check on their job.. and I am pretty happy that they value the quality, and I am blessed with my spare time with Aidan and Nadia, riding our lawn mower truck just drive around... fun!!!
Most importantly, when Ammar is home, he is just becoming all ours... no more lawn work. YAY!

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Hm... my cousins are coming to NYC and I can't meet them up there. Why ? Just because I just can't leave the kids behind. Never! Never in my dictionary. Are they too attached to me ? Maybe, but I think I am the one who can't live at night without them. Other than that, too bad I have doctor's appointment on that friday afternoon. They are leaving on Sunday, and that Saturday will be my birthday (yeah.. happy birthday to me.... old mom!) and we are planning to go to Toronto for that long memorial day weekend. Lisa and Ima.. I am sorry, I can't see you guys there!
Now, giving the all recommendations of my favorite places in NYC, I just can't help not thinking about Gray's Papaya and their fresh squeezed orange juice.. mmmm.... yum!!! 
When I used to live in NYC for school, then worked in Central Park area, I used to go stop to Gray's Papaya on the way to work.. and it was always the best hotdog ever!!!!

Now.. I am really hungry

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

He is a great husband, after all :)

I cook special Syrian food today, after spending morning at the salon to trim my hair and straight to my favorite produce store far away from home, bringing the whole fridge full of veggies and fruits.
Ammar ate so much and kindly enough, he offered me to clean the kitchen and all the dishes and kids' after school dishes and bottles, too.
He has been so tired doing the extra works at the office and other stuff but he has been so sweet to me even more lately.

Thank you for helping, sayang!

Friday, May 02, 2008

I finally got myself to enjoy the hot tub jet tonight, after all the kids are in bed. Putting the music on, put the light on dim, it came to my mind how much I miss having a relaxing bath, by myself, and go to sleep peacefully. Joy! 
Readers, I am so sleepy now, tomorrow we have a busy day again.
Good night. I am going to sleep peacefully, happily and soundly.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008


Sharper Image stores and any others fun stores filed bankruptcy. The other which we really like is Bed Bath and Beyond.

I still have the picture of the Sharper Image store in New York City, on W 57th St between 5th and 6th ave. I used to go there with my friend, Cathy during my fellowship at NYU 1998-2000 and really fond of their gadgets. 

The economy is bad, worse, and getting worse, and I feel sad that even good stores can't keep up.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

I am sorry that I keep thanking for what I have ... it is just that I am feeling so blessed with my life. I can't ask for more, everything relatively perfect, every single day.

I have Aidan with me whole day, and I really enjoyed playing with him, he was fully pampered today, I trimmed his toes and finger nails, then when he woke up, I cut his hair by strapping him on the trike and let him watch his movie.
I also enjoyed him by pushing him around the neighborhood with his trike, and have the afternoon bike ride with him... he enjoyed every minutes. We also played in the sand box, sitting on the grass and enjoyed the afternoon sun. My son totally turned to be brown/tanned. Still cute, according to me.
I enjoyed rocking him and played with him, holding him in my arms and watching those eyes went smaller, smaller, blink, he hugged me, and fell asleep hugging me. 

Nadia, she is such an angel, still. I drew for her, and she drew back for me, I have those pictures and I looked at it, it gave me very warm burst of feeling in my heart. I love my dear princess, and I enjoyed showering her before bed and dried her long beautiful straight hair in the real saloon style, blow dried it and she gave me a big kiss to thank me. 

Sometimes, I feel like I need a nanny or helper. Just like my previous life in Indonesia, I grew up living with 2-3 maids, gardener, cook, and drivers, and I have to admit, I sometimes miss it, but I realized that living like I have now, makes me more proud of what I am, what I do, and what I have. Nothing like the feeling of taking care of your own family (husband and 2 kids) with my only 2 hands, since day one.

I always go to bed exhausted, but the price you get, is worth every single time, when your husband came to your bed, giving you a kiss, and whispers, thanking me for what I did to him and the kids... and telling how wonderful I am....  don't you agree ?

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I just spent almost 2 hours on the phone with Lisa... There is so much to discuss, mostly about life, relationship, and in laws. 
There is so much to share, and so much to learn from.

Life is beautiful, sometimes can get complicated, but we will survive, in any conditions and any circumstances, because we... are strong .... human is miracle.

Okay, got to do my errands!!!


Thursday, April 17, 2008

Dalai Lama in Ann Arbor... Richard Gere, too!!!

Actor Richard Gere and acclaimed composer Philip Glass will join local Tibetan master Gelek Rimpoche for a discussion of Buddhism and art during a program that has been added as a prelude to the upcoming two-day visit of the Dalai Lama to Ann Arbor.


The program will be at Hill Auditorium on the University of Michigan campus on the evening of Friday, April 18. It was announced Wednesday by organizers planning the visit of the Dalai Lama on Saturday and Sunday, April 19-20.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Update on Aidan's health.

It turned out that when the Child Urologist wanted Aidan to come so much earlier due to my e-mail was after hours ... I came with Nadia and Aidan at 5.30 pm, no one was there, the receptionist even already closed her book that day, so I couldn't pay the co-payment. So he was so nice to see Aidan after office hours.
Ammar came to see us (he works at the same hospital), and after discussing what happened with Aidan. Nothing to worry about, he is fine. Great! I am relieved.

Dr. Bloom was so nice, he gave Nadia stickers and both of the kids the baseball trading cards.

I went home by my self because Ammar still have to see another patient that night (he works harder, doesn't he ?)

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I took advantage from my husband's profession today.

Yesterday, Aidan was seen by his pediatrician and she referred him to see the pediatric urologist. They set up the appointment for Aidan and the first available was July 7th!!! It's 3 months from now!!!

This morning, I emailed the pediatric urologist, and just saying that I look forward to see him in July, and I have met him and found out he is such a super kind person (it's true, we met at the new faculty welcome party), and I just told him the short story about what happened with Aidan.

I got a phone call from his clinic... he moved Aidan's appointment for this Monday.

Well, I didn't ask bluntly that I want to see him earlier, but he made Aidan special by knowing Ammar works at the same hospital.

From Ammar's point of view : "Sari, it's not urgent.... you are asking between the line that you want the earlier appointment"
My point of view : "Hey, I am a mom and I am worry about my son.. hehe"

The truth : "Is it wrong or not using your husband's name in getting a better health care ?" 
After all, he treated patients, too and I think his family deserves to be treated well, too.


My three favorite cute faces, my world, and my hearts.
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